I'm really emotional about cats
hello hello I am twiggy!!
I'm a tiny forest mage who loves sinnoh, music, video games, cats, martial arts, turtwig, luxray, emoticons, books, punctuation, manga, dreams, stationery, fountain pens, trees, and the flower forget me not.
again, just checking in!
I've been working on a big project, and I know I've barely scratched the surface of the soil, but hhhhhh...what a pleasure to see things form structure!!! when I have some semblances of a working trial I'll be sure to share it here, but that might be quite a while haha! I've many several smaller projects on the same medium that have never really seen the light of anyone's eyes but this one I hope to be able to share. I'm pouring so much of myself into it, and I will do my best to bring justice to the beauty in the gardens.
OH my goodness guys. I love to read. it's so, so good to have time for my own pleasures with school ending. that being said, I'm starting a 9-5 job lmao. I applied for a fellowship in the biotechnology lab at a university nearby and yeah.. I'll have a 45min commute each way, monday through friday, for 9 weeks. I sincerely hope that it'll be as interesting as the description was because otherwise I will be suffering!! :')
my small pleasures have been helping me in small ways, I think. I've been working hard. my therapist has bumped me down from meeting once a week to only once every other!
sometimes I catch myself just feeling crushingly alone. but it's okay! my cat is always with me when I'm home, and there is nothing that keeps me calm like her. she's showing her age though.. my baby turns 11 this month, and has started meowing to get my attention before attempting jumps onto my desk. sometimes her back legs won't make it and she'll scrabble for a second before I catch her and my heart stutters.
I don't know, really. occasionally I'll find uncertain emotions facing me in the mirror, and before I can name them they flit into my blind spots to catch me unawares.
there's such wonderful music in the world guys?? wow. I don't really know what to say I just am overwhelmed sometimes with our capacity to create beauty, and right now is one of those times. I've been thinking a lot about space (as you might've been able to tell by the sci-fi books I've been posting about) and I so badly want there to be something out there that we have the ability to interact with, and potentially share our beautiful creations! this just seems so important to me! I think, even if we are vastly humbled, there's no shame to be found in that - and we definitely could use a quick opening of the eyes.
I have (at times paralyzing) fears of the future, but I am taking things one step at a time. no matter how things do or do not work out, I can handle it, or will do my best to recognize when I need to call in the cavalry :'D
I'm sure a few of you who've known me over the years know I have a hard time making friends, especially bc there's legit.. no other girls in my school who play video games / have any other common interests that I get along with. which has sucked a lot.
BUT!! I MADE TWO FRIENDS!! they've been best friends since childhood but oh my gosh.. they're so happy to include me!! All three of us have similar senses of humor and our personalities mesh well. one of them moved a <10 min bike ride away from me, and I spent an hour and a half on a video call with her playing animal crossing together last night.
I know this must seem like a really little thing but it's more than a small pleasure, when I told my brother about them I actually started tearing up. I have literally never in my life had female friends irl to play games with or talk about manga/anime so this is just really, really wonderful for me!
well..this has been your update on twiggy!! I'm doing just fine.
p.s: few things make me happy like my turtwig strap. it is so precious and makes me bubble up with my childhood joys. I'll keep u safe forever little friend