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hello I am twiggy !!

I'm an aspiring forest mage who loves writing, cats, music, video games, books, punctuation, magic, manga, stationery, pens, colored ink, and the outdoors.

remember, the roses on the lawn don't know which side you're on.

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since I had a lot to say today I might as well say it all!

July 5 at 7:24pm

hello my friends!! its update time from me, ur friendly neighborhood twig :'^)

first of all: korea is a really, really cool place! I've been enjoying my time here thoroughly so far and I'm trying very hard to make full use of the time that has been given to me here. I'm trying to learn a lot every day; hopefully I can keep my pace for the next month. I've been missing some people and places back home - the time difference can make it easy to go days without talking to a lot of my friends, and my cat.......where is the light of my life...........i miss her w/ every minute
I would honestly move back here for at least a few years. what a wonderful country, and so green?! wow!! also the food here rocks !!! so delicious.. seaweed is such a good snacc and its so easy to get here I love it..

I've been really good about journaling every day lately, putting down the objectively important / small but subjectively memorable events and thoughts with a consistency that makes me proud of myself..I have envelopes, and stationery for letters too, so if anyone would like a letter I'd be happy to send you one..? if you're in the us I'll probably wait on sending them until I get home but guys letters bring a pure joy into my life pls let me write to you they'll be super banal and probably about the weather but. this offer kind of always exists honestly if you ask for one and don't explicitly ask me to stop or say you've moved I'll probably just send one to you every couple of months lmao.. I love sending letters but don't have enough people to send them to! :')

along with journaling, I've been trying to actively change the way that I think about and approach writing, journals or otherwise. a lot of what jeff vandermeer (u guys know him by now..my fav) has written about the act and process of writing has been really helpful to me, and I've been consciously focusing on a lot of what he's talked about. rewarding my subconscious, //thinking/ about my writing, etc. cheers to that! I'll continue to try to better myself, though I tend to get kind of discouraged when I don't see results as quickly as I'd like to. I need to remind myself that changes may be imperceptible to me but apparent to the outside observer... we're just gonna do our best! there's a lot of things that I've wanted to write about but haven't really, out of procrastination, lack of confidence, what have you. I hope to get through those obstacles soon for at least some of the subjects, hopefully even while I'm here in korea.

I've been listening to a lot of podcasts here especially, as we walk quite a ways per day and even I can run out of music to listen to repeatedly lmao. sam harris, lots of npr, and fiction podcasts have been keeping me going! if anyone has any recommendations, feel free to drop them to me!!

guys, I don't know when the last time I updated u about my social life was but.... a lot has happened over the past year. its been really, really hard at times and wonderful at others - I've lost someone I thought would always be beside me, and hurt them tremendously. I dream about my regret often. its an obliterating shame that I'm not quite sure how to handle yet, and so I've packed it tightly away, but it escapes me sometimes.. :') ah well. as you sow so shall you reap. it is my eternal hope that one day, we can be together once more, even if the same capacity of closeness that we enjoyed is impossible to recapture.
I've also regained someone so special, who I thought wouldn't ever come back to me! his name is thomas. I love him with an intensity that startles me. our history is complicated and kind of messed up but we've made each other strong and I am pathetically happy to be beside him once more.
outside of those two central figures in my life, I've confidently cemented some friendships I know will sustain into college from high school. I'm glad to have at least two friends who I know will stand by me, regardless of the trial. they've been stability for me when everyone and everything else has seemed to fracture.

I am struck, often, by how little I know, even about the things I claim to have true passion for. I need to work harder. it'll be a long month left here, but I hope to come back home a much evolved person than who I was when I left.

I'd like to go back to vermont in august..I think about it there very often. I also plan on joining the outdoors club at my college when I arrive there :') guys, I just really love it outside. I'm glad that I've been able to enjoy it recently like I have. in thomas' backyard, they have a hammock strung up between two trees. I miss that hammock with a physical ache and the shadows of the canopy over it

overall, I'm doing just fine. I hope you all can say the same - tell me how you're doing! I love to talk to you guys..

this has been a check-in!


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I facetimed w my cat yesterday and had my brother just leave his phone propped up facing her while he took a shower. I cried :')) my baby girl..she's so lonely without me. I get videos of her just walking around the house yelling for me until she gets hoarse.
I find out in mid august if my college will allow her to come with me to the dorms as an ESA. we rly need each other..my therapist said there's no reason for them to deny her, but I'm so frightened! at least there's an appeals process, so if it doesn't work out I can still try. god I think about this so much.. I'm so nervous

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further digging has revealed the draft of the first chapter from the pmd fanfic (circa 2010), and I now present to you a highlight from the opening, with original typography :"D
read at your own EXTREME risk this is an undiluted dose of juvenile twig writing

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discovered a 2011 pmd fanfic of mine crosses self

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thought about red wolves a lot today and got kind of sad
I hope they're going to be okay......

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@ anyone who's interested in being a PENPAL!!! :^D
send me a message here or on discord and we can set stuff up! I'll probably send a letter every 5-6 weeks, or longer if an unexpectedly high amount of people answer I guess..? I'm excited! I love letters!
((also I probably won't mail anything until I'm back in the US since most of you live there anyway so I'm jumping the gun by about 4 weeks but oh well))

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I don't usually talk about politics here but YES scott pruitt is O U T good riddance u piece of work

andrew wheeler, his (temp?) replacement, seems to share a lot of his sentiment for unraveling a lot of regulatory work WHICH IS A DAMN SHAME however from my reading on him he seems to be more well respected than his loser boss was.

I burned w/ a lot of resentment toward pruitt so I'm just.. glad lmao! I hope the epa hangs in there for like.. 10 or so more years until I can roll in :"^l

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hello my friends!! its update time from me, ur friendly neighborhood twig :'^)

first of all: korea is a really, really cool place! I've been enjoying my time here thoroughly so far and I'm trying very hard to make full use of the time that has been given to me here. I'm trying to learn a lot every day; hopefully I can keep my pace for the next month. I've been missing some people and places back home - the time difference can make it easy to go days without talking to a lot of my friends, and

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further recc for Dark: this song. wow. the scene with it is //stunning// and the song itself is awesome. please watch the animation!!! and the lyrics are..something else
@apsa I feel like you will like this song :')

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ALSO on cool shows/movies I've seen lately.. did anyone see Hereditary?? I feel like it lost a lot of thunder bc of the pretty much simultaneous release with incredibles 2 but WHAT a movie!!! holy crap!! horrifying and gut-churning; one of the best horror movies I've seen - an incredible soundtrack, super tight on details and things to notice, light on the cheap thrills, and the perfect amount of occasional humor :')
definitely wouldn't be able to see it again bc I was SCARED lmao but it's been hanging on my mind for weeks. I've probably only managed to out it by watching Dark which I MUST emphasize is one of my new favorites pieces of any kind of media please please watch dark lmao

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has anyone seen Dark on netflix?? I recommend it so so highly!!!! wow!!! *_____________*

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have any of you ever taken two different language courses at the same time in college? I'm thinking about trying it, but......scared lmao...

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also I'm curious to see if I'll gain or lose weight after this trip: I walk a LOT every day here, but I'm eating so much food lmao.. and so much bread.. the pastries here are out of this WORLD

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I bought the cutest socks today!! gosh!!!!! :"^)

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this place is wild! I'll be staying in a city called daejeon if anyone's interested. i have never experienced humidity of this scale

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I'm going 2 miss my cat.. .so much.....
:"^( we're gonna video call each other but. my girl.. she'll be so lonely

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hello friends! a heads up. I'll be away for the next 6 weeks! I'll definitely check in at least once a day but.. it'll be wild :"D I'll be in korea. I will bring back pictures and experiences and also love. the korean alphabet was surprisingly easy to learn - I'm hoping to be capable enough to say hello, pls & thank, and also to read restaurant menus. wish me luck for the 14 hour flight lmao

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last night I received a shirt that says "sex, drugs, and lobster rolls"

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I love!! this song! and the choreography is awesome!!

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it's been a busy few days!
I spent a few days in vermont with two friends. I bloom in the mountain air and the uninterrupted forest

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wow good for you

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