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ive been thinking

October 29, 2015 at 9:23pm

man, ive been thinking recently about just how much ive drifted from everyone here, friendship wise. ive never been more disconnected from this community than i have been for the past year or so

so i just want to say this;
i still consider everyone here a close friend. even if we dont talk much anymore, even if im not as active here as i used to be, route 50 and the people here have been such a huge part of my life, and helped me discover who i am today
i love all of you. i always have, i always will. i couldnt have asked for a better bunch of people to help me through the tough times ive had, and the tough times i know i will have

man...sometimes i cant believe how much ive moved away from you all. it makes me feel...sort of sad, to be honest. i barely even know whats going on in the life of the person i used to call 'moirail'
still care about you tho, dont forget it

so, please, i want everyone who reads this to know that i am their friend. and that i love them. and if they need someone to talk to, im here for them. even if i dont or cant understand their problems, im here to listen

i still visit route 50 every day. i still check up on the happenings here. please dont think i dont care about everyone. i do, i really truly do. so please, remember that

youre all my friends. i love you all, and im sorry that i dont talk to anyone much anymore


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