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hello!! i'm apsa. or katie. whichever u prefer. im a 16yr old girl from chicago.
i like video games, esports, music, movies, tv shows, mysteries, writing, and standup comedy.
when im not shitposting or memeing (forgive me), i mainly post things i find funny or interesting. i tend to keep to the stream mostly. sometimes i chill in the chat.

heres some more info about me and the things i like.

music: i looove classic rock. in addition, my fav bands/musicians are rush, mgmt, billy joel, st. vincent, steely dan, black keys, eagles, tame impala, king gizzard, dire straits, fleet foxes, franz ferdinand, radiohead, foxygen, And So Much More™.

esports: i mainly follow the league of legends scene. i regularly watch na + eu lcs. i try to watch lck. i catch highlights of other regions, and follow all major tournaments. my favorite team is cloud 9 (i used to like gravity, but they are no more...). i also like dignitas, echo fox, h2k, uol (they were the first team i watched a pro match of), and g2 (croatian pride). i watch twitch streams basically 24/7. i've been looking to delve into other esports scenes, like cs:go and overwatch. honestly, get me started on lolesports and i can't shut up haha

games i play: mainly world of warcraft and overwatch. i hardly play league of legends anymore. also, pokemon (i've been playing since pearl), animal crossing new leaf, and guild wars 2.

pokemon: fav mons are absol, mantyke, seviper, ninetales, mimikyu, arbok, houndoom, rotom, dragalge. fav type is ghost.

fav comedians: mitch hedberg, bo burnham, tig notaro, bill burr, norm macdonald, louis c.k., john mulaney, george carlin.

fav shows: quantum leap, seinfeld, psych, monk, the office, iasip, preacher, columbo. i don't watch tv as much as i should lol.

fav movies: i don't watch too many movies either, oops. but, i like the untouchables, warcraft, kill bill vol.1 and vol.2, o brother where art thou, and goodfellas.

more fav things: color is green, food is white chocolate, season is autumn or winter.

if u read all that ily.

p.s. if you have any recommendations of things i might find cool, or just a silly joke or video u think i would like, u should totally show me!! ♡
p.p.s don't be afraid to reach out to me im a lonely nerd. see the widget above.

Journal

i feel 100% super good yell heah

September 24 at 10:58pm

just some updates and things

> im so... done with my anxiety. not done like, "ugh just end it" but like... i just dont give a shit anymore lol. my anxiety tries to be like "hey remember me suhhhh dude" and i just slam dunk it and it doesnt bother me, cause i know it makes 0 sense. this relatively new feeling was what allowed me to go to thee oh sees concert! i think a big part of it is... it really hurts so much when i look back on like, my entire life, and realize just how much ive been missing out on, because my anxiety told me i cant do those things. but now ive overcome that i think, and i have a lot to make up for. case in point, im going to another concert at the end of october, the lemon twigs, a really awesome and cool band. my sister saw them a while ago and apparently they put on a hell of a show. funny, their type of music is like, the exact opposite of thee oh sees.

> my meds work, but i cant help but get the feeling one of the meds i take kinda... loses effectiveness the longer i take it. which is a scary prospect to me considering the type of medication it is. i think the dosage needs to be upped, will talk to doc about that :\

> motivation. i need my meds in order to function, and they give me motivation. ive learned its ok to take meds regularly, and its ok to rely on meds. i have motivation for different things, and sometimes i have a lot and i get lazer focused on one thing. and other times the motivation is a lot lower (but still higher then unmedicated), but i can still do things usually. sometimes i get lazer focused on being distracted, lol. basically, the motivation goes up and down. i dont know if thats how motivation is supposed to work.

> work ethic. closely related to motivation. like, motivation's cousin. i have the work ethic of a sack of potatoes, and coupled with my strictly sedentary lifestyle, its a roadbloack for me. kind of like i do with motivation, im trying to hone my discipline. and ive started to take walks around the school, just to get out and stretch my legs.

> yes i may be lazy but my mom is the worst in the world ever. i swear to god, arguments have gotten worse, bad attitude, and shes borderline useless. i was missing required forms for school i didnt know i needed (because its literally not my job to get that sorted, its my moms). so they had to send me home. because of my moms ineptitude, im a burden to the staff at school. i always apologise, they say its ok, not your fault etc. it takes reminding my mom, yelling at her, just to get her to do the most basic things, like a doctors appt. i need, etc. such a pain.

> lost 30lbs :))) in a healthy way. i feel better overall, and more confident!! im not without my bad days, but... i roll with it, forgive myself and try harder the next day.

> WORLDS STARTED!!! im h y p e i wait ALL YEAR for worlds!! woowowowowowowwoooo! i already reversed my sleep schedule so i can watch live!!

> my family is very low on funds (see my next point). like 2 weeks ago my sister got in an accident, hit a guy on a motorcycle and broke his legs. other events have drained our dollars.

> i need a job :O my dad said his friend, an old family friend, was looking for a babysitter. we visited his new place in the city like last year. its a nice house, and they have a really big dog. the family friend is really funny and chill, and his wife are super cool. she played the flute, she was legit amazing at it! their kids are like 6 and 7 i think?? ive always wanted to babysit, because i LOVE kids. at my old school me and my friend, because we were the most well behaved students :^), would go to see the little kids and play outside with them and help them with their schoolwork. so for the job i would babysit the kids overnight, from like 11 to 7am. the job would start in january, even tho its in the city i have reliable transportation (i dont drive so i would take the train there and my dad would pick me up on his way home from work, and i even have time to spare before school starts). one of the classes im taking is 21st century parenting, and i took health so i know first aid and stuff, and id have to go take a cpr class at the y. now, i dont have the job for sure, but i told my dad i was ~really~ interested, and he would talk to them. so i really hope i get the job, its like a dream job tbh, cause i chill with kids, theres a big floofy dog, and i get to take the train :D BUT if i dont get it, i need to look for other jobs, which i was gonna talk to my teachers and stuff about getting a job, theyre lifesavers honestly, very flexible and go above and beyond.

> early graduation maybe???? all my classes are online, and i already finished 2, about to finish 3. once ive finished all semester 1 classes (semester 1 ends in december), they can give me my semester 2 classes early, and if i finish those before semester 1, i would literally have nothing to do lol. they said something like that has never happened before (because the online classes are a new thing), and i didnt file forms or whatever to graduate early (because i didnt expect to), so the teachers and all are gonna see what they can do, because id have no classes lol. a theory the teachers had was i would stall graduate at the end of the year, but not have to attend school until then. which would be neato.

> WORKIN ON THAT BOOK HEYOOOOO

> what am i gonna do for college? idk still. my fallback is to just go to the community college, but id rather not. going abroad is my dream. im 90% sure im gonna pursue audio tech/broadcasting.

> thats all i can think of now LATER SUCKERS


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the storylines write themselves

#C9WIN #DIGWIN #H2KWIN #G2WIN #UOLWIN
don't let ur dreams be memes

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manually editing my many, many songs and giving them the correct artist/album art/year etc
someone put me out of my misery

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NEW KING GIZZARD SONG JUST DROPPED TODAY ALSO HHHHHH

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concert talk... was gonna put it in a journal but im on mobile and its kinda buggy

all in all, a very interesting but awesome concert with some really cool moments. although i liked thee oh sees show juuuust a little better, i give beach fossils 999/10, would concert again.
today, out of curiosity, i checked beach fossils twitter, and sure enough, they were gushing about chicago. it made me happy that i was a part of beach fossils best show ever.

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will write a journal later, abt the concert and other things
meanwhile... TRADITIONAL SPORTS UPDATE??? WAOWWWW
im gonna talk about the 2 sports i know the least about lmao (every other sport i can follow, and i love football).
so in terms of basketball, gordon hayward got injured in the season opener, his debut as a boston celtic :( gordon is my man cause he plays league and has appeared in a lot of league segments. and at the nalcs summer finals in boston, he was actually on the analyst desk.
meanwhile the cubs are down 3 games vs the dodgers... you guys know the bitter rivalry between the two chicago teams, the cubs and the white sox. i was raised as a sox fan (cause my dad lived in the south side of the city) but tbh i like both teams (one field trip i went to at my old school, we toured wrigley field, it was pretty cool). I BELIEVE IN THE REVERSE SWEEP
i like watching all sports, i need to watch more traditional sports tbh. i dont know what teams i like tho haha. any chicago teams ill always root for tho.

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will talk abt concert 2morrow

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ON THE TRAIN HYYYYYPE
cubs are playin tonight so lots of people in cubs jerseys and stuff on the train

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EARLIER THIS WEEK ST. VINCENT RELEASED HER NEW ALBUM (its a 100000/10 btw) AND TODAY MGMT JUST RELEASED A SINGLE FROM THEIR UPCOMING ALBUM I AM BLESSED

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concert tonight :') seeing beach fossils :'') :''')

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special thanks to my hair for taking 23 years to dry

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once again, cloud 9 is the only na team to make it out of groups
to be completely honest, edg deserved it more.
but hey lets go c9 :D

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on reflection (heh heh), i think gentle giant is one of the most accessible prog rock bands. and also one of the most underrated bands ever. NO ONE talks about them, no one knows them, but they are super distinctive, awesome, and interesting :0
but i will say, they have THE WORST album art. all of their album art is just....... really really bad. especially acquiring the taste, like... whats even going on there?//???

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WESTDAD PLEASE HAVE MERCY

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AHAHAHAHAHAH FLASH WOLVES WON JUST ONE GAME VS TSM FORCING TSM INTO A TIEBREAKER WITH MISFITS. TSM L O S T HHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH ahahahahahahahheeehooohehehahahahhohahah

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flash wolves :(

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on a lighter note, jatt's tantrum was hilarious.

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ssg and rng made it to quarters. unlike last year, g2 didnt play terribly at all, they were great. it was just a case of ssg and rng being better, unfortunately. papasmithy said it best "if it was any other group, they would have made it out".
g2 made wuhan silent by beating rng earlier today. perkz made good on his promise and picked yasuo vs 1907 fenerbahce, leading to a fun game and a win for g2, even though by then it was too late and the game didnt matter.
they showed the comms during champ select...
coach youngbuck: "you wanna feel sad, feel sad after. just enjoy it."
perkz: "i will try."
when the game ended, perkz hugged trick really tight, and all the g2 boys hugged each other and zven and perkz were crying :'(
and zvens post game interview :"(
and and perkz just tweeted about how they might never play as 5 again
g2 :""""""""( dont be sad please you are an amazing team and you did so well

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small pleasure: played guitar again today for a long time. time to build up those callouses on my fingers again FeelsGoodMan

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hey guys you got any music recommendations for me?? anything youve been listening to lately you wanna share???? i need some new tunes

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week 1 immortals goes 2-1, looking like the prime candidate for making it out of groups.
week 2, immortals proceeds to lose every game.
week 1 gigabyte marines go 1-2. week 2, 1-3 (including a game in which they were so, so, so close to winning vs longzhu, they were 11k gold up, but longzhu managed the comeback).
week 1, fnatic go 0-3. week 2, fnatic go 4-1, losing only to longzhu.
the stars aligned for fnatic... the extremely unlikely scenario that would have allowed them to get out of groups, actually happened.

that last part was so cheesy haha. idgaf tho anyway, and after all this... theres still 3 more days, 3 more groups, to determine the last 6 teams to go to quarters.
lord help me

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esports rants incoming
for now, coping memes

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