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i like video games, esports, music, movies, tv shows, mysteries, writing, and standup comedy.
when im not shitposting or memeing (forgive me), i mainly post things i find funny or interesting. i tend to keep to the stream mostly. sometimes i chill in the chat.
heres some more info about me and the things i like.
music: i looove classic rock. in addition, my fav bands/musicians are rush, mgmt, billy joel, st. vincent, steely dan, black keys, eagles, tame impala, king gizzard, dire straits, fleet foxes, franz ferdinand, radiohead, foxygen, And So Much More™.
esports: i mainly follow the league of legends scene. i regularly watch na + eu lcs. i try to watch lck. i catch highlights of other regions, and follow all major tournaments. my favorite team is cloud 9 (i used to like gravity, but they are no more...). i also like dignitas, echo fox, h2k, uol (they were the first team i watched a pro match of), and g2 (croatian pride). i watch twitch streams basically 24/7. i've been looking to delve into other esports scenes, like cs:go and overwatch. honestly, get me started on lolesports and i can't shut up haha
games i play: mainly world of warcraft and overwatch. i hardly play league of legends anymore. also, pokemon (i've been playing since pearl), animal crossing new leaf, and guild wars 2.
pokemon: fav mons are absol, mantyke, seviper, ninetales, mimikyu, arbok, houndoom, rotom, dragalge. fav type is ghost.
fav comedians: mitch hedberg, bo burnham, tig notaro, bill burr, norm macdonald, louis c.k., john mulaney, george carlin.
fav shows: quantum leap, seinfeld, psych, monk, the office, iasip, preacher, columbo. i don't watch tv as much as i should lol.
fav movies: i don't watch too many movies either, oops. but, i like the untouchables, warcraft, kill bill vol.1 and vol.2, o brother where art thou, and goodfellas.
more fav things: color is green, food is white chocolate, season is autumn or winter.
if u read all that ily.
p.s. if you have any recommendations of things i might find cool, or just a silly joke or video u think i would like, u should totally show me!! ♡
p.p.s don't be afraid to reach out to me im a lonely nerd. see the widget above.
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just some updates and things
> im so... done with my anxiety. not done like, "ugh just end it" but like... i just dont give a shit anymore lol. my anxiety tries to be like "hey remember me suhhhh dude" and i just slam dunk it and it doesnt bother me, cause i know it makes 0 sense. this relatively new feeling was what allowed me to go to thee oh sees concert! i think a big part of it is... it really hurts so much when i look back on like, my entire life, and realize just how much ive been missing out on, because my anxiety told me i cant do those things. but now ive overcome that i think, and i have a lot to make up for. case in point, im going to another concert at the end of october, the lemon twigs, a really awesome and cool band. my sister saw them a while ago and apparently they put on a hell of a show. funny, their type of music is like, the exact opposite of thee oh sees.
> my meds work, but i cant help but get the feeling one of the meds i take kinda... loses effectiveness the longer i take it. which is a scary prospect to me considering the type of medication it is. i think the dosage needs to be upped, will talk to doc about that :\
> motivation. i need my meds in order to function, and they give me motivation. ive learned its ok to take meds regularly, and its ok to rely on meds. i have motivation for different things, and sometimes i have a lot and i get lazer focused on one thing. and other times the motivation is a lot lower (but still higher then unmedicated), but i can still do things usually. sometimes i get lazer focused on being distracted, lol. basically, the motivation goes up and down. i dont know if thats how motivation is supposed to work.
> work ethic. closely related to motivation. like, motivation's cousin. i have the work ethic of a sack of potatoes, and coupled with my strictly sedentary lifestyle, its a roadbloack for me. kind of like i do with motivation, im trying to hone my discipline. and ive started to take walks around the school, just to get out and stretch my legs.
> yes i may be lazy but my mom is the worst in the world ever. i swear to god, arguments have gotten worse, bad attitude, and shes borderline useless. i was missing required forms for school i didnt know i needed (because its literally not my job to get that sorted, its my moms). so they had to send me home. because of my moms ineptitude, im a burden to the staff at school. i always apologise, they say its ok, not your fault etc. it takes reminding my mom, yelling at her, just to get her to do the most basic things, like a doctors appt. i need, etc. such a pain.
> lost 30lbs :))) in a healthy way. i feel better overall, and more confident!! im not without my bad days, but... i roll with it, forgive myself and try harder the next day.
> WORLDS STARTED!!! im h y p e i wait ALL YEAR for worlds!! woowowowowowowwoooo! i already reversed my sleep schedule so i can watch live!!
> my family is very low on funds (see my next point). like 2 weeks ago my sister got in an accident, hit a guy on a motorcycle and broke his legs. other events have drained our dollars.
> i need a job :O my dad said his friend, an old family friend, was looking for a babysitter. we visited his new place in the city like last year. its a nice house, and they have a really big dog. the family friend is really funny and chill, and his wife are super cool. she played the flute, she was legit amazing at it! their kids are like 6 and 7 i think?? ive always wanted to babysit, because i LOVE kids. at my old school me and my friend, because we were the most well behaved students :^), would go to see the little kids and play outside with them and help them with their schoolwork. so for the job i would babysit the kids overnight, from like 11 to 7am. the job would start in january, even tho its in the city i have reliable transportation (i dont drive so i would take the train there and my dad would pick me up on his way home from work, and i even have time to spare before school starts). one of the classes im taking is 21st century parenting, and i took health so i know first aid and stuff, and id have to go take a cpr class at the y. now, i dont have the job for sure, but i told my dad i was ~really~ interested, and he would talk to them. so i really hope i get the job, its like a dream job tbh, cause i chill with kids, theres a big floofy dog, and i get to take the train :D BUT if i dont get it, i need to look for other jobs, which i was gonna talk to my teachers and stuff about getting a job, theyre lifesavers honestly, very flexible and go above and beyond.
> early graduation maybe???? all my classes are online, and i already finished 2, about to finish 3. once ive finished all semester 1 classes (semester 1 ends in december), they can give me my semester 2 classes early, and if i finish those before semester 1, i would literally have nothing to do lol. they said something like that has never happened before (because the online classes are a new thing), and i didnt file forms or whatever to graduate early (because i didnt expect to), so the teachers and all are gonna see what they can do, because id have no classes lol. a theory the teachers had was i would stall graduate at the end of the year, but not have to attend school until then. which would be neato.
> WORKIN ON THAT BOOK HEYOOOOO
> what am i gonna do for college? idk still. my fallback is to just go to the community college, but id rather not. going abroad is my dream. im 90% sure im gonna pursue audio tech/broadcasting.
> thats all i can think of now LATER SUCKERS