Journal Entries

Old depressing rambles

August 26, 2017 at 10:58am
Contains some depressed/angry rambling from a while ago. I'm only keeping this here to show myself how much I've grown. If you happen to come across this and don't like depressing stuff, I suggest you leave.

I am writing this mostly to organize my thoughts and to get stuff off my chest, but I would appreciate other people's input. Excuse me if this all seems disorganized. This may also help in understanding my wretched negativity.

Fuck it, I'm not continuing because people hate me… continue reading

inspiration: my (first) black belt grading

June 1, 2017 at 9:20pm
First of all, I forgot to mention that this is the first of two tests.
As I said two days ago (at the time of me writing this), this test was a test of endurance and spirit. First, I had a pretty intense fitness test beforehand. Then in about 3-ish hours, I pushed through a whole wack of basics and "kata", which, trust me, it gets really exhausting. In wasn't awful, but I pushed through it all.

But then there was the 12-minutes of continuous sparring. N… continue reading

Attempt at a self explanation and apology

August 6, 2016 at 10:37pm
If you missed my two recent posts, which you will now never see because I've deleted them, consider yourself lucky that you missed a truly disgusting side of me (or rather you missed it getting really bad).

If you don't want to know what I'm talking about then perhaps click away.

I won't sugarcoat it. My gripes were petty as all hell, with me complaining about goddamn internet points, and I'm sorry you all had to see that.

The reason why I had this breakdown (and I guess some o… continue reading