is this enough? is this ever going to be enough? is this ever going to be enough for me? is this ever
1) my cat would be lonely. I whispered this list to her and she looked at me deep and long the green of her eyes asking, won't you sleep with me for a while? have you forgotten how loud I purr when we watch the rain? will our blankets be taken away from me, where will I sleep that will still smell of you? I rub her ears the way that makes her eyes close and tell her my darling, little lovely, if you told me you wanted to be a tiger I'd bring you to the jungle as long as you promised to be good on the plane
2) the color of my lanterns against the window is beautiful. some days we sit together and watch it change from afternoon until the blackness of night, and she purrs next to me knowing that she is the only one who hears everything I tell her, that when I am quiet I am listening for her response; time waits for no one, she says, and I nod and watch the blue out the window shift to a false purple and the stars are pinpricks goosebumps on my arms listen, she says, listen, and the wind is in the trees and the trees cover the stars
3) I hope that one day shirley jackson's children will release another collection of her unseen work. that just might be enough. that could be enough. as the sky darkens I'll close my eyes and picture us all reading it together, is this enough? is this enough? is this enough?