hi buckaroos im in the glasgow airport heading to cardiff whats up
im about 2 weeks in. each day is a challenge, but a challenge i feel like i can manage. taking away all the daily distractions of Home made me get in touch with my mental state. no one can solve my problems but me, because im alone. i have to call a taxi company to get a taxi to the airport. no one can do that for me, only i can, so i just take a deep breath and dial the number. its easy once i do it, but i try not to treat myself badly about it, its just my dumbass brain spooking me. each day i have lite challenges to conquer. back home i hated hated hated going to the store, it was a huge source of anxiety. now when i arrive in a new place i have to go to get groceries, the anxiety, my brain making excuses, hasnt gone away, but its gotten easier i think. its liberating. some days are hard, but i count down from 10, or say, after this song, i get dressed, or brush my hair, or put on my shoes. after this next song i grab the keys. after this song, i exit. and i do, mostly. one day my anxiety was bad and my stomach was upset so i just stayed inside, but thats okay. listening to music has helped me immensely. thanks music. speaking of, i am not regretting lugging my bass with me. ive gotten valuable practice in. :) i feel proud of how the case is progressively more scuffed up and scratched lol. although when people make Small Talk with me they usually ask about my "guitar" and im like Haha Yup Its A Guitar (: maybe its broken, its missing a few strings...
one thing is im so bloblike that walking is... Ugh. my feet and legs hurt lol. but im like, okay i guess this means im getting in shape, so whatever. i try not to get self consciois about it, but its hard.
its not like im staying in hostels, theyre airbnbs that are all entire places, so i dont have much of a social aspect. it doesnt bother me that much at all. im just taking pictures of beautiful places and enjoying looking around, people watching, listening to my backlog of music.
my favorite place has been edinburgh. what a cool place. everywhere in that city is so cool, the people are so so so sweet and talkative. and its so beautiful. galway is a close second, it was filled with usic everywhere you went.